nostalogic

to be honest i kinda miss my old school days, where everything was like fun. esp year 12..

wag school, muck around in class, lunch go to the train station with a couple of friends and knock in a few puffs, run away from teachers, smash peoples bikes, the sensation of "yea thats right we rule the school" but thats very typical thinking.

not to forget good times in state library and not mentioning the look out of any girls *interesting ones*... know everyone in nb. best of the best, freebies. free bubble tea from one chick, icey ice from another, juice shakes from another, you name it. practially can live there for free maybe spending a dollar or two if we were that stingy.

good times good times.

despised

yet another day has pasted with no differences.

it seems so harsh. my efforts of keeping in contact with her seems bothersome in her perspective. its sort of an ouch. ive wasted so much money for the calls. infact i recharge almost every 2 days, and all i get is a recoil.

what am i supposed to do? slightly in a confused state. i wonder what she's thinking sometimes.

its tough i know. im trying to bare with it. i try not to take things personally, but its my natural instinct to do so. theres like a battle in my mind.

Gym is like my best friend, it keeps my mind away from things like these plus theres some bonuses too which are : i dont bother her (which are my passionate calls) and she wont get annoyed at me either (because she finds my calls annoying somtimes). Bingo. wish i can live in the gym now. golf is my backup but it costs too much to play everyday seriously.

trying to adapt to her satisfaction hurts me, but again gotta endure through it.

sighh.. big sighh........ what more can i do?

dark side.

theres many things i want to say, i just cant. my words i speak cannot express what i feel.
cold and harsh it beats right deep within me..

im mesmerized by my change, i can see i behave different but i cant help it..

wishing to pack my mind in a little box, not needing to worry.

a flower needs air, congesting and suffocate its air, its space.. eventually will wither.

its not easy distracting myself keeping my mind off track..

it keeps beating hard- like a hammer thumping on a nail, digging deeper and deeper piercing the thick stone like shell. set me free from THIS i plead.

endure endure.. yield me.

boring day ,, story in 2002 year 7 hollywood primary. me hanson and ninpo fran

One fine day three boys we at their table in class. then david tells fran to stand up and then david gets a pen and poked frans dick
David - AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH fran GOT A BONER

HANSON - HAHAAAAAAAAAAHAHA SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT MAN

FRAN - NO i dont!! :(

TEACHER - water break now kids, 15minutes

(15minutes later)

David + hanson - aH fran got a boner

Fran- okay fine i was thinking of porn.

david + hanson- HAHAHAHHAHAHHHAHAHAHA

update

homos are faggots

some pictures=] of 14th mArch

lovely pics of the [Methodist Ladies College] ball, 14th of March 2008!!


stupid (C) sign -[left to right] felicia and ken at the back, me, hmmm cant see very clearly... get you back for your one of me!! haha =) and hanson at the front

again pose change slightly- felicia and ken back, me, adeline and hanson [looks ike he elbowed adeline on the neck] XD

my favorite pose =] S-david, Ying, hanson-2 ,,, 3 heads in 1 heart


the 3 [BUFF BOYZ] - Alfie hanson me, and the Young Yellow Ying

front row - the 3 demure ladies- ying , desiree wanyu
back row - the 3 cheese boys - me, hanson, alfo Y^-^Y


back row - me (shrunk) , hanson , alfo
front row - ying , desiree, wanyu <--- i think thats how you spell her name.... :)
group of our limo i think and some others.


nice lights on the dance floor!


a picture taken of us infront a war memorial?


my suit and my uni backpack = best match

the left overs are the afters



some of the boys

MLC BALL! 14th of March 2008

Woah 14/3/08 friday night = awesome :) MLc ball ..partner Ve Wen.. :) fun fun everyone looking pretty and so hard to recognized esp the girls XD and met new guys =] 4-15pm- rachel calls and tells us that the florist closes at 4!! WTS hanson and me were still in preparation mode!! LoL XD so we rush out and guess what SUPER JAM in claremont oh goshhhh @___@ took like 10minutes just to get to the street light lol... but thanks to the nice worker laady she had to wait for hanson to collect his corsage =] but yeah limo 300C :o soo nice =] going to kings park and such a coincidence that i meet JEnny! she has her ball on the same day! hahaha.. about 7-30ish we arrive at hYATt. pretty interesting and classy. very small if i were to compare the ball room size to my school ball room size =) but still enough to have fun. i reckon it was more fun at this one as i knew more people,, though i know people from school i dont socialize with them so ill say this one is more fun.. PLUS!! Hg family able to talk about dogs and horses 69times. XD. dance eat photo do that about another 69 times then the whole day is done! afters pretty calming.. no alcohol but still i thought i had a enough amount of fun esp acting with tam LOL muay thai. =P oh oh and DD's nice bean pillow, morning rises we all begin our preparation of leaving the apartment poo =( walking out with a suit with a casual shirt? bit stupid? but yeah super i mean super long walk to hansons house in my loafers not very comfortable till i wore my sandals!! soo nicee =] and now too much to type .. type more later, have to stuidy now